Monday, May 25, 2009

Happy bloody Memorial Day

Right as Brian was running around yesterday getting ready to leave, I went to the bathroom and saw that my period was in the process of arriving. The scary part was the almost absolute emotionless reaction I had. Considering I didn't once for a minute believe I was pregnant this time, I guess it's not too surprising. I could tell he felt bad but I didn't want to make a big scene right before he left to drive two hours to see family, so I didn't. After he left though, and it started raining and I went to the bathroom again just to confirm what was true, I thought, Wow, I wonder if this day could this day suck any more? No, I don't think it could. Then I accidentally rammed my toe into the cabinet under the bathroom sink and thought, Ahh, yes.

I half-assed started cleaning up, but my heart wasn't in it anymore. Which now that I think about it, I actually was reacting to getting my fucking period; I just wasn't really allowing myself to acknowledge it too much. But when I woke up from a three hour nap, I was ready for the pity party to be done with. Each of the last two times this has happened, all I wanted was to be left alone for the day and hey, here I was. I spent the rest of the day doing laundry, reading, making potato salad in honor of it being a cook-out holiday and renting a non-Brian movie off of PPV, Rachel Getting Married, which was good and worth the $3.99.

Today I'm one of a small skeleton crew here at work, which is a good mix of being out of the house and also somewhat left alone. It hasn't been the kickoff to Summer celebration weekend for me that it is for most people, but this has never been a significant holiday for me anyway, so it's fine. I'm thankful to all our vets, but I live with a man who watches the History Channel a lot and get plenty of opportunities to be thankful and cry for them.

The highlight so far has been my cousin Scott emailing to let me know there's a Land of the Lost marathon on the SciFi channel today and he's ecstatically introducing his older daughter to what used to be our favorite show when we were her age. I'm looking forward to watching a couple of episodes when I get home and I'm damn sure going to see the movie when it comes out, even though I know it'll be nothing like the show. Scott and I used to "play" Land of the Lost and the most fun part was always going over the waterfall. Now it's being described as a "cult classic," so I doubt anyone knows what the hell I'm even talking about so I'll stop.

I'm looking forward to Brian coming home this afternoon. I did fine without him, what with avoiding getting murdered in the shower while home alone and all, but yeah, life is much more fun with him around. I don't know what's next on the baby agenda, but I'm finding it difficult to care right now. Life goes on and it's still better than the alternative.

Whoa, can you FEEL the ennui?

I'm fine. Really.

9 comments:

suzy2110 said...

Oh Kim. :( I am sorry. About all of it.

If it makes you feel any better at all, it's a holiday here too, and everyone I know is off work except me. The company I work for thinks holidays are for wimps, so it's business as usual here!

On the up side, everyone I know is currently getting pissed down on. It would be much worse sitting in here if the sun was splitting the stones.

AND- gin and tonic is GREAT for period pain. So that's my recommendation for later. ((hugs))

Shari said...

God a Gin and Tonic sounds good! I am working tonight too, so no partying for me.

Sorry about the news, Kim. I guess we'll just have to see what happens. What else can you do?

I think the Land of the Lost movie is going to be good, but yes, very different. I think everyone our age loved that show. We used to play it out also. Somehow my brother deemed me to be Chaka. What does that say? I'm just now realizing how much torment he put me through and I didn't even realize it. I'll have to check it out and be amazed at the special effects. I'm expecting some bouncing boulders.

Scientific Lutheran said...

I'm sorry you're not pregnant. ((hug))

I'm looking forward to Land of the Lost, too. Have you seen the previews? I like the quote, "Matt Lauer can Suck it!!"

Swistle said...

So sorry, sweet girl.

Dyskinesia said...

Love you, and that's all I have to say about that.

Did you see the Man vs Wild commercials during ye olde DC marathon this weekend? Normally I want to slap Bear Gryles in the face with a live fish, but to see Will Ferrell out there with him, I may actually have to tune in.

...and total aside: We had DC on Saturday afternoon. The Boy said, When is this show going to be over? (wanting to watch SpongeBob or something) Imagine my glee when I said, "MONDAY!" :D

iamheatherjo said...

I'm sorry sweet girl.

I wasn't much of a Land of the Lost kid and I'm an even less of a Will Ferrell adult. So I'll have to take a pass on all that biddness.

So many members of my family were in the military that this holiday is one of the good ones for me. It rained a bit today so I did the cookout thing, but didn't make it to the cemetery like I usually do. Today would have been my Nana's birthday too. *sigh*

My word verification is "scone". I LOVE scones! :D

Taoist Biker said...

She really did say "Monday!" And almost gave a "Mwuhahahahah!"

Having lived with me for his entire life, my son immediately went to his fallback position, that is, that Parental Unit is Full of Shit.

You should have seen his face when she took the remote and started hitting "forward" on the channel. "Look! DC. DC. DC. DC. Followed by DC. DC. DC. And what's this? DC. DC. DC."

Julie said...

I'm sorry. I continue to be hopeful and optomistic on your behalf, but I'm bummed that this wasn't your month.

LL Cool Joe said...

Damn. I'm so sorry Kim. :(

I will continue to pray for you, if that's ok?